the ethicz of writing

i have three more or less finalized books, and some not so final ones, and lots of in between shit. and at least two books that were lost to the ether when i drunkenly accidentally deleted my primary folder on my computer once.

what is writing? a kind of direct neurological engagement, like dreaming.

i used to write driving 80 down the highway to work at 530 in the morning with two hands on my phone typing and one knee on the wheel. that is how much of DFIOS was written. pure need. i created myself with that book.

later refinements in CS (my favorite of my books probably) and TP were nice but less necessary; more like excess overflows.

i don’t write much anymore, for books anyway. but i plan to write a short book on strange subjective states for which no name and no concept exist. is grueling work though. it’s like doing magik or experiencing the supernatural, the awareness of it fades almost instantly. but my memory is powerful as fuck now, thanks to years of immense suffering and to life soulcrushing me. lol.

but now my philosophies are lived directly as my life. so there is less need to write them down. in fact writing often perverts and destroys what is already living.

Fuck you're early writing is insane. Then you sent me some other stuff and it was always far too deep for me to deal with it and also life. So, consequences be damned, I had to stop reading or trying to read you.

Each aphorism had the potency of a whole Nietzsche book. Was incredible and fucked up.

But I think Nietzsche was aware of this. His deal was that he knew I would disengage if he even tried and incorporated life into it, was political from the faucet.

Your shit is relentless and uncompromising. While Nietzsche cared for himself and his reader, the future and what it all meant, you did not give one fuck.

I think the society Nietzsche will has created will allow these aphorisms and books to be read.

It will provide the ultimate luxury and requirement of a trzzue filosofer. Leisure.

it’s true. in my writing i just do not give a fuck. my writing destroys.

good

because every word i wrote in my books is truth. so idgaf

also unlike nietzsche i don’t care if no one reads my books. i just selectively offer them to worthy people. i’ll never make money on them nor submit them for “publication review”.

fuck that shit to death.

i know for a fact that humanity does not deserve my writing. which is why i don’t write for them.

I will consider great success if I ever achieve the space to read them.

Lol don't mock me.

i wasn’t, it was just too obvious to refuse.

I did see that.

Whatever I fuck Camels too.

Lol which reminds me, I can actually say I have been friends with a man who fucked an ass.

haha

that’s funny because i can say the same thing. except the guy i knew, it was a sheep.

That's fucking gross.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

yep. i don’t talk to him anymore.

I would talk to this guy. Don't know where he is.

Fucking cool guy. But he, you know, he fucked an ass.

They were all doing it and what, he was gonna refuse?

The countryside...

orgasms are hard to refuse.


truth

Seems a little more complicated than that. It is not as if he saught out the beast. He was cojoled by other men. Not that he was too against it.

haha

i’ll refrain from imagining such a context.

I always thought I would never talk to a person like that again. But he had already earned my liking so much and the way he told it was so dignified, he's such a proud scoundrel... Something about the way Venezuela is.

yes i can sort of see that. definitely actually

Tribe.
What does that mean.

That a drum is being beaten.