"As a side note, I refer to that existence as Chaos. Valuing it so, as a living thing which is unpredictable, which feeds me even as I act with no knowledge of it only if I will accordingly, decreases my waste of thought by several orders of magnitude."
a problem is that that in itself is orderly.
You're addressing chaos from an orderly, logical idea about it.
Can that work?
" The strong do what they can do and the weak accept what they have to accept. "